That´s me sometimes

Here I am again,
with the same sadness, melancholy and emptiness as usual.

Always when I read my papers I find out that either I live sadly
or I just find inspiration in sadness..I prefer to think that.

Alone at the office, this cage..
but should I have the chance to choose..
What would I choose?

A life full of trips and then return home and feel alone?
With the company of lots of rings from men that just want sex?

Being an important interpreter and also share part of some lonely entrepeneurs like me?
Spending my time on a plane, visiting different countries away from home, friends, mom and from a true love?

Why always the half part of sthg called love needs to choose between its goals or love?

Why do I need to prove that I still can seduce other lifes if I have already chosen the life I want for ever?
This word.. FOR EVER.. does it really exist?

Why do I feel that emptiness?
I have everything.. Do I have everything?
What is what a person needs to be happy? What is everything?
Does happiness really last more than just some moments?

I am so far away of what once made me feel fine from deep inside my heart..
the sunlight at midday and sunset,
the smell of wet land after rainning,
the look of my pets staring at me when crying.

Now everything takes me out of my place,
out of my focusing point,
I cannot concentrate in achieving my goals,
I am in a constant fight against time, against years..

Today I got up with a voice desperated to feel me close.. but distance just made a rain noise appear between us and suddenly everything blew away and never came up.

I am still waiting for this voice again but i know the phone won´t ring again.

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